Another birthday, another skipped birthday cake.
Well, not totally skipped – I had one small taste from my husband’s fork and that was that. I have heard from multiple sources that total denial is not the way to go. I’m not sure enough that is true that I will try a small piece, but a small bite is kind of my way of compromising with my desire to stay away from it 100% and my fear that if I do I’ll end up buying a whole cake and eating it in secret like some weird after-school special about eating disorders.
I’ve been a whole grain rockstar. Brownberry wheat bread (or whole grain bread) is the best. I know I’m getting the right one because it has the seal on it from the whole grain seal-giving organization. I also know I’m getting the right amount of whole grains because that stuff makes the plumbing work right if ya know what I mean.
I’m not sure what I weigh, I’m afraid to get on the scale because I don’t know how it will make me feel. I thought of it again yesterday morning when I put on my jeans and they felt loose. It’s been a long time since those jeans haven’t felt tight. They were the last piece of non-maternity clothing I was wearing before having to go all-maternity. I also wore them three days after having my darling little girl. They were snug, but they were wearable without giving me camel-toe or some other awful side-effect of wearing “oh hell no” tight jeans.
So the food is still on track, the jeans feel loose, and I’m exercising about three times a week.
Why three times when I love it so much?
Mostly because I don’t love it the way I used to. Even when I try to throw myself into it I just don’t get the rush I used to get. My endorphins, I think, are a bit broken still.
But I keep going.
Soon…soon I know I’ll enjoy it again. Probably. I really hope so because exercise made me feel SO good. It was a great feeling to finish a workout and down a bottle of water and laugh on the phone while I used a towel to dry off my neck.
So that’s how my fitness journey is going. I hope you are keeping up with – or thinking of starting – yours! The fact