So for the last time in my adult mommy life I put a mattress in a room and put a 1-year-old on it and gave her a bottle and snuggled her and covered her up in a lightweight blanket and said goodnight.
Overall, it was the easiest of the three moves. D has been having problems in her crib lately because she’s so long and has this crazy arm-span and has been sleeping through the night ONLY in my bed. As much as part of me would love to think it’s because she needs to be by her mommy and daddy, the face slaps during the night remind me she just needs room to stretch out and sleep comfortably.
So we put a mattress on the floor of the girls’ room. I don’t use a box spring because she can’t even walk yet so expecting her to not fall out of a bed is just silly. When she fell off of the mattress it didn’t cause her an ounce of badness and we checked on her to find her curled up sleeping on the floor. So. Cute.
But that means it’s time to sell/donate the crib.
Which makes me all “awwwww” and at the same time makes me want to jump for joy because I almost have my life back. The one that does not revolve around diapers and immunizations and bottles and mommy guilt that I could be doing more. The part where I get to have a life and let my kids take the lessons I’ve taught them and start applying them in a real-world setting.
There are a few pangs of regret at our decision not to have a fourth. A worry that my little D won’t have someone so close in age like her sisters are to each other. A fear that she’ll be odd-man-out and that will give her anxiety. But if it’s my youngest feeling a little left out or me going through another nine months of pregnancy, well, little D will have to suck it up, because I’m done being the human incubator for awesome kidlets.
So this is me signing off after a night that had a few interruptions but not caused by little D. I feel groggy and my brain wants more coffee while my tummy says “Oh, hell no.” So I’ll just have a granola bar and water. Because part of this overall life change is continuing my commitment to health and fitness. For me.